I have had quite a lot on my mind lately. Things that happened in the past that I just can't let go. My best friend and I stopped talking back in like February of this year. A lot happened, and I guess we both sort of knew our friendship was at stake. It's been months now, and I know that, but I still miss her, well, who she used to be.
Who honestly picks a boy over their best friends? I seriously only thought cold-hearted bitches do things like that. I never saw her as one. I guess it still hurts because I don't understand why she did what she did. I could never ever imagine abandoning my friends, and I wonder the kind of stone your heart would need to be made from in order to do such a thing.
Part of me wants to just ask her, "Why," but the other part of me says to just forget it. Move on. Like as if getting an answer would only hurt more than just not knowing, and thinking of a thousand and one different reasons for the answer. If i had the answer, would I truly be happier? What if it did hurt more, than it would probably rip apart what little is left of my heart, and then where would I stand?
Well, anyway, this is just me ranting and such. I needed to get things off my chest, so take it as you will.
blessed be.
peace.love.harmony.
I understand. I've been there...twice, actually. The first time, she just froze me out 'cause she honestly thought I'd take her man away from her...I didn't want him. The second time, was with another girl. She was my BEST friend. We had been thru jr. high and high school together and were just beginning jr. college. She met a guy and thought I was a better match for him so, she did the logical thing. She lied about herself and me. She told him AND his family that I was a promiscuous, drug-using, alcoholic. She was actually married the guy for about 5 minutes. I had no idea she was saying any of that until much later but by that time, our friendship was long over. It's been well over ten years and I still think about her from time to time. I just heard that she's divorcing for the second time and she's 38. I don't know where I'm going with this except to say, that I understand and it's hard to get thru but you will.
MoonSongBright Blessings,
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